Chapter 1659 Lost In A Wrong Turn:>71
- Liz noticeably blanched at that. She realized that she had never really understood the devotion her girlfriend had for this muscular woman standing across from her. Michelle had taken Alice's virginity, helped her come to terms with her sexuality and been a source of constant support for eight months before Liz even met the young woman. Who was she to think she could tell Alice that she had to leave that part of her life behind?
- Alice turned to Michelle. "When I was . . . with you . . . that first time, I knew what you wanted, but you let me make the decision. You trusted that I was accepting you with an open heart, even though I barely knew you. You made me feel so perfect and so safe. You opened my eyes to a whole new world, and I knew it was where I belonged, even if I didn't know quite what that meant. But Liz has done that too. You know how scared I was. I was scared about dealing with my family, dealing with the changes in my life, and you know how terrified I was about finding someone to have in my life. Especially after what happened with Jamie," Alice said. Both Liz and Michelle scowled at the mention of that name. Both women not-so-secretly wished they could wrap their hands around that redhead's neck.
- Alice noticed both women tensing up, and realized she probably shouldn't have brought Jamie up. "Michelle, Liz took so many of those fears away, even the ones that you couldn't. I've already told you that I trusted her. And this . . . thing we do means that I don't have to be scared about . . . well, sex. I know that may sound stupid to both of you, since you have so much more experience than I do, but sex scared me. I mean, Michelle helped me realize who I wanted to have sex with and how wonderful it could feel, but I also knew that not everyone I met would be as nice as she was. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to please my partner or that I would be clumsy. I hate bringing her name up again, but after Jamie, my biggest problem was that I thought I had done something wrong . . . that I hadn't been good enough somehow. I don't worry about that anymore. Liz worries about it for me." Her eyes actually lit up for a moment as she looked at Michelle. "It feels so good to not have to make any decisions about something. Everything else has been so much clearer. You believed in me once . . . believed that I understood what I was doing. Believe in me now," she implored.